“Alyson’s writing is gorgeous: passionately poetic; brutally, yet delicately, descriptive; strikingly raw; and insanely sexy. I’m in awe of, and in love with, Limelight…and Alyson.” – Kim Holden, Author of Bright Side
A standalone NSB novel.
A genius, an underachiever.
I’m the song, the voice, the passion, the pain.
I am failure.
I do music because it’s what I am, but sometimes that’s not enough.
A slave to my nature, I wait for it to show mercy and drop a gift in my lap.
Because the music chose me.
I’m its victim not its gift.
She destroyed my career.
Ruined my life.
Pushed me from the shadows and exposed my lies.
She’s the fire that destroys lesser men,
and now her flames are aimed at me.
She loves to watch me burn,
but the part we never saw coming?
Sometimes it takes a fire to ignite a spark
And slay the darkness.
I write what needs to come out, whether it’s pain, tears, or laughter. I write people and relationships, about the beauty and horror of what we do to ourselves and each other. I write Love. Vengeance. Compassion. Cruelty. Trust. Betrayal. Forgiveness. Darkness, and the incredible way humans destroy and heal each other.
I like to eradicate barriers, refusing to be confined by the laws of physics or limitations of reality. I will befriend a vast population of possibilities and introduce them in ways that might surprise you.
I’m going to preface this by saying this is not my kind of book. I love a good angsty romance, ones with pain and pleasure, ones that make you cry from laughter, ones that make you think you may be a bit twisted because you enjoyed it so much: those are my romances. This book was an emotional upheaval that took every fiber of my being to finish reading. The emotional, physical, and verbal abuse that Jesse Everett suffered that led him down a path of self-destruction to function was too much for me to handle. I had a ball of anxiety in my throat every line that I read.
That being said, this book was so beautifully written. When I started reading, and realized how self-destructive Jesse was, I wanted to cry. I hate drugs, hate reading books with them in it, but I kept reading Jesse’s struggle. I was sucked in to the Jesse whirlpool, cheering Mila for sticking up for herself and for Jesse, cursing Parker because he didn’t understand, crying for Jesse every time he interacted with Jonas.
The songs Jesse wrote, the songs in his head, make my heart ache. I wish I could hear the songs being performed, but I don’t think they’d ever live up to what’s in my head. I do not have a musical bone in my body, but in my head, the emotions in the song? No one could do that justice.
Seriously, the only reason this has four stars and not five are because of totally personal reasons. I didn’t enjoy reading this novel, but I don’t think you’re supposed to. I devoured it, even as I begged myself to stop reading it. I was on an emotional roller coaster with Jesse, and neither one of us could get off. Alyson Santos did an amazing job writing this novel, and this was the first one I’ve written of her, but I don’t think my heart can take any more of her books (at this moment. give me a month I will probably try again).
I am an emotional wreck after reading this, so I will be reading the funniest, most light hearted novel I can find. Something to make me smile. I so need it right now.
EXTREME emotional warning and every trigger warning I could throw out there. If your heart can take this book, read it. I’m not as strong as Jesse, Alyson or any of the characters in the book.